Good News So Far ...

So far we are looking good! My e2 level was 187 last Thursday, yesterday ( Monday) it was 80. They want to see my e2 level at 50. So it looks as though the cyst is shrinking. However, I am going for an ultrasound on Saturday to check and make sure everything is clear to start stims! I am excited and nervous and just want this all to go as smoothly as possible. I am so tired from the Lupron and feeling a little overwhelmed but I can handle it. At this point I feel like I can handle anything..

So right now I am very happy we are not canceling anything yet... I leave you with a happy pic of me and my niece Mariah cruising in the back of my mother in laws convertible.Happy Tuesday Everyone!

Tick..Tock..Tick...Tock

Ugh waiting for my blood test results in killing me.Tick... Tock.. Tick... Tock... time is going by so slow:( I went at 9am this morning, its 3:30pm and still no call from my RE. I really hope I dont have to cancel this cycle. I will be so devastated, but I know I want to go in with things looking perfect and a 17mm cyst is not perfect. So now I sit and wait... I can not get any work done. This stinks:(

I was right....It is a cyst...

Yep. A 17 mm cyst. Just great. Now I have to wait to start stims and have another blood test on Monday and pray my estrogen level goes down. On Thursday it was 187. So please say a little prayer for me and send me some shrinking vibes because unless this cyst starts to shrink this cycle may be canceled! I am devastated and am basically in limbo till Monday afternoon... I will let you know how it goes. Nothing is ever easy for me. This may just be a small hiccup in m journey through IF.

Freaking Out!

So my doctor called and says my estrogen levels are too high to start stims! Ugh why me. He said it may just be a cyst, or I may need to stay on Lupron a few more days...He is not sure..going in tomorrow for ultra sound..I will keep you guys posted...wish me luck! Ugh so annoyed!

Last Blood-Work Before Starting Stims:)

Today I go for my last Blood Work before starting Stims. Tomorrow I have to go for an ultrasound as well. I am nervous to start stims but so far the Lupron injections are not as bad as I imagined so I am hoping the Menopur and Gonal F arnt bad either. I heard Menopur burns so I am a little nervous about that one. My RE says he will prescribe me a cream that will help numb the area if I need it. So, off to get blood-work...Enjoy the day...

My New Obession...

Ok, so have you guys heard of Zulilly.com ? I just joined and so far have bought tons of stuff from this site. They have personalized kids stuff and even some cool stuff for us too! My niece and nephew are super, super, spolied by their " unkie Jackie" thats what they call me have no idea why but its cute so I will let them call me whatever they want. I am God Mother to both and it makes my heart happy to spoil them.

So check out this site its amazing!

http://www.zulily.com/invite/jlanno136

Here is a picture of my favorite 2 :) Mariah and Max. They are both 4. Max is my twin sister's son and Mariah is my brother in-laws daughter. Max was born a week before my wedding and Mariah was born a week after:)  ( Great Timing.. we were all stressed around wedding time:))

But I love them so much, I cant wait to be able to spoil my own someday but for now I love being their favorite auntie or shall i say unkie:)

Shots, Shots, Shots...

 " This is how I feel now... before I dreaded shots now I'm ready for them... trust me girls, the needles are not as bad as you think..."

So... Today is day 11 of Lupron shots and I am now a pro. I was literally making myself sick over something so small. I did however switch from stomach to butt:) It hurts way less in the butt area for some reason so we have been doing the injections there. Its hard to pinch though,  I have like no butt lol but it works for me. And I always have someone give me the shot I can not inject myself.. yet.. who knows I keep surprising myself...Thursday I have to go get some blood work done and Friday I have an ultrasound before starting stims. I will be starting Menopur and Gonal F starting along with Lupron next week. One shot is easy peasy! I hope 3 shots isnt too bad. I heard the Menopur stings so I am a little worried about that one but I am always worried and end up becoming a pro in the end, so if I can do it .. you can do it ladies. We are stronger than we think we are.
I am very emotional though, and I am not sure why. I dont know if it is from the Lupron or just from this entire experience. This cycle is kind of a big deal. But the best I can do is take it day by day. The only other side effect I feel from the Lupron is that I am always tired. That is it. So, compared to Clomid the side effects are nothing.
So this weekend, I have a few photo shoots  ( I am a photographer on the side, paralegal during the week) and a bridal shower. I can not wait to relax this weekend, I have a facial scheduled for next week. I think I am going to get a facial every week just to relax....If I can afford it...-Wishing all my followers a nice, relaxing, weekend!

In a time pinch???

A quick shot o f Lupron is so easy. My mother in law met me  before my Zumba class, Joey was working late... it was quick and painless and I felt fine at Zumba...and it literally took under 2 minutes total:)

Although last night I had the worst heartburn. I have no idea if it because of the medicine the zumba or the fact that I ate dinner at 9 30pm but either way I still have it today... boo!

First Night of Injections!!

Oh my goodness, I have been making myself sick over this day for months. I was so scared and I dont even know what I was so scared of. I wasn't scared of the pain, I think it was the needle itself but anyways, I had my DH do it quickly and it was all over. I was so relieved. I was so scared of nothing. However, that was one injection soon I will be doing 3 a night and I am sure it wont be so easy but it is not as bad as I pictured it.

I am a little sore today. I must have tensed up during the injection, for the most part I feel fine. I plan on going to zumba tonight:)

So for all of you who are scared.... dont be, its not as bad as your thinking:):)

IVF Meds being delivered today!

Hello All- I am so sorry I have been MIA but the last few weeks have been very busy. A lot has changed, we decided to end up going back to are old RE. We just had a gut feeling about him. We liked the RE that was closer and easier to get to but our gut told us to go with our initial RE. He sent us a letter indicating he started his own practice and we followed him.  I am so nervous and excited I feel sick everyday. So many emotions and feelings all at once.


My doctor decided to go with Lupron, Follistim/Gonal F-225 units and 75 units of Menopur. I will be starting Lupron 10 units a day on July 15th, I will continue to take the birth control and lupron, then once I return to the office for blood work and ultrasound I will decrease to 5 units of Lupron per day and start Gonal F and Menopur. It so overwhelming but I have to push myself to do this. I am ready.ER and ET are most likely going to be the week of August 6th...

So today or tomorrow we are going to the inject class. I start the Lupron injections on Sunday.So its all starting and I am freaking out! but we can do this! Here we go!

P.S. I will be blogging about each injection, helps and tips on side effects and any little thing I can remember to help girls going through the same thing...