My Cup of Tea Leaves~

 On Saturday I had my tea leaves read by a Tea Leave Reader. It was a really cool experience. One of the first thing she said was she sees Rabbits in my cup. That means she see's a pregnancy. She see's a pregnancy very soon., 99% sure I will have babies:) She told me not to be scared, she said my fears for IVF are for nothing, she said nothing bad was going to happen. In fact, she sees me with Three (3) babies. Now my DH is not convinced but at this point my little heart is desperate and anything anyone says to me helps. She aslo knew about many other things no one else would know. I am a believer...:) Just thought I would share..

Switching RE's

This week Joey and I decided to switch RE's I loved my old RE but he left the Practice we were originally signed up with and I was driving 45 minutes out of the way just to see him. So we decided to meet with an RE yesterday and we had a really good feeling once we left there. He would for the most part do exactly what my old RE was going to know, except he would tweak the medicine a little bit...but we are comfortable and confident with this new RE. At this point, I dont know if any of the decisions I am making are the right ones, I have to just take a chance. But we are excited to start a new journey with this RE. So, I would start the BCP next cycle, so stims would start in July and ER and ET would be in August. So this month, I'm going to TRY relax!

Another bump in the road...

So I received an email yesterday from my RE's office letting me know, my RE, that I love so much, is gone form the practice. WHAT! What do you mean gone? Where did he go? and Why is he leaving? Great, I was suppose to start BCP on Day 3 and I'm on Day 1 and now I have no idea what I'm going to do! My current RE is in Trumbull, CT. That is about a 45 minute drive every time I go. This may be what pushes me to a closer RE. I have RE's that are 5 minutes away. The lesser drive may help my stress level go down but am I making the right decision by switching. Ugh.. IF is never easy... I will let you know what I choose soon. As of right now we are making an appointment with a new, closer, doctor. Just to see our options. I do not want to wait another 3 months to start the IVF process, I am ready now.

Oh and by the way, its my 29th Birthday, my husband, Joeys too!

Enjoy the day!

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

 DH and I have to make several decisions in the next couple weeks but one of our biggest decisions yet will be whether or not to transfer one (1) or two (2) embryos on the day of egg transfer. I go back and forth everyday wondering what the right decision is. I am a twin and would love having twins, but is there more complications with twins, will the chances of miscarriage be greater. Is the chance of a single embryo attaching alone better than two. Ugh, this is really going to drive DH and I crazy. But I have decided to take a deep breath, relax and just take this day by day. Who knows, maybe my egg quality wont be as good as they think and they will definitely want to put two. I guess my best bet is to wait and see how it goes up until retrieval. . I will definitely listen to the doctors opinion and make my decision then. Until then, my brain will still be going back and forth I just cant shut it off!

All set to start BCP at then end of the month!

So, we had my office hysterscopy, cervical mapping, and blood work done. Blood work was easy no issues there. I was scared I was going to be light headed but I was not at all. They cervical mapping and hysterscopy were pretty uncomfortable. I had really bad cramps during. I had taken Tylenol a few hours before but I def still felt the cramps, but it was quick like 4 minutes and as soon as the procedure was over I didn't feel a thing. I went right back to work. That was the last of my preliminary testing before the big IVF Process begins. Everything looked perfect. My uterus is slightly tilted but that's about it! So I will be starting the BCP and baby aspirin at the end of the month. Right around my 29th Birthday. Happy Birthday to me lol:)

I am very excited but scared at the same time.

Overwhelmed...

Wow, that IVF Class/Consult was intense. It was so in depth. They assigned me a one on one nurse that will be with me throughout this entire process. Her name is Jill and she is wonderful. My husband and I sat there and asked numerous questions all which were answered with no problem. They feel because I am so young, and my eggs should be in great shape, that this will be it for us. They went over embryo freezing, the cost of IVF, what insurance covers, what it does not, all the medications I will be on, when I can start taking them, all the testing they will do on us prior, there is so much I cant even write it all. Just know that when you go for your IVF consult, it is a lot of information to take in. I know I did not remember everything but that's what I have Jill for.Hopefully, your RE will assign you a wonderful nurse that will make this process run smoothly. So as of right now my husband and I have decisions to make. If we are going to go ahead and start the process. I will be starting the birth control pill at the end of May. IVF will most likely be the week of the Fourth of July. I have a lot of thinking to do. Enjoy your weekend everybody!

IVF Consultation/Class...

Today at 3pm we will be going to our RE's office for our IVF Consultation and Class. This makes it all very real.  You would think  all I would be thinking about is, Is the IVF going to work?... and I am, but I am worrying way more about the injections. I am worried about dumb needles. I hate that I am scared. It's not going to stop me from pursuing IVF so I just have to get over it. Yesterday I googled this website that actually had pictures of the injections on them. As I began reading the article, I started to sweat, and almost felt faint. I was reading about this one injection that you have to get in the muscle. It looks awful, but so many girls that have gone through it say that its nothing and that the anticipation and fear of doing the injections is so much worse than the actual injection. Girls say its painless and they are pros at it. Many woman feel stronger and more confident that they accomplished something they were so scared of. So I am going to be strong, I am going to take this one day at a time, and I am going to get through the injections. But today we go over everything, What IVF is, our insurance, any questions we may have...Its going to be overwhelming I'm sure, just like everything else.But we have made it this far, at this point I feel there is nothing my husband and I cant do.. I will report back tomorrow to let you know how the consult went.